By you, I feel, betrayed
For you, I would have done that
no one offered me the opportunity
to even react
I knew you, I did
before you knew you
Set myself aside because I wanted
to be better for you
and for me too
I have fought harder
you would not be able to imagine it
You do not know the journey
or the path that I walk
or the depth of my heart
You will not know
because you forgot to allow me
allow me the opportunity
Lie to myself about
about the bond I have made up
in my very own head
the truth I deny
you have floated out
the stick I have
it is not long enough
to pull you back
by you, I feel, betrayed
Although it seems as though I have disappeared off the face of the earth, I have not, I am still here. I’ve not been doing well at keeping up with these post as you can clearly see. There really is not much interesting happening around here. I have done some painting but mostly on furniture. I did get some time to paint this. It is a 36 X 36. It took me six and a half enjoyable hours to paint this.
I have this one hanging in my bathroom over my bathtub. I’m really enjoying it there although I’m not sure it has found a permanent home just yet. Truthfully, I would love to spend every moment of every day painting, writing, or drawing. Unfortunately, I cannot quit my day job. Not to mention, when I’m not at my day job, I am doing my other job(s). I spend most of my time cleaning, picking up after my husband and daughter, and taking of care of the animals.
Speaking of animals and I am not sure why and against my better judgement, I let me husband talk me into getting our daughter a ferret. She named him Marvel. Being the humorous person that I am, I call him Marvel Redenbacher. Like Orville Redenbacher. You get it? You get it? Go ahead, it is perfectly acceptable for you to laugh at my dry humor. I guess you can imagine how hard it is for me not to go in there and clean the cage. It is so hard that I have had to do it. Although, I really try to restrain myself I find some days it is almost impossible. I told her if she was going to have this ferret she was going to be the one keeping his cage clean. I’ve questioned myself as to why I did not get her the dog she wanted instead of the ferret she wanted. I guess I thought the ferret would be easier for me to take care of if she didn’t. On a serious note, she is doing pretty good at taking care of him but she sometimes lets her laziness overcome her desire for her room to not smell like ass. I think she knows that before it gets to bad mom will come to the rescue and clean some shit up. Guess what, I sure do. How can I not? Could you resist this adorable little face?
Talking about cleaning makes me think about how my daughter tells me that I am OCD all the time. The other day I cleaned all the glass tables and of course she comes right out in the living room with a nice sweaty glass of “I’m going to jack with my mom” and sets that sweaty thing right on my glass table. She sets it not on but next to the coaster. I repeat, right next to the coaster. Of course it is completely driving me nuts and I find that I can’t even focus on the movie until she puts the damn glass on the coaster. I look over and she is just smiling at me. She tells me, “It’s okay mom, just watch the movie”, and proceeds to laugh while I sit there and squirm. I’m laughing but trust me it is making me crazy and she just laughs. She finally realized that if she wants to watch the movie without interruption, she had better but the glass on the damn coaster. She messes with me like that but little does she realize that she is just as messed up as I am. I caught her re-arranging the place mats on the kitchen table because the designs were not all facing the same direction. Ha! Not to mention the time I put something else other than popcorn in the bowl that had the word popcorn stenciled on it. I thought she was going to pull her hair out. Don’t screw with me child, I love you enough to screw with you back. Do your kids screw with you? I’d love for you to share how your kids screw with you in the comments section. All this talk about how my daughter screws with me brings me to this video clip. I think this sums it up.
I think I’ll end this post on that happy note.
Have a great day!
The change in the weather has really made my face unhappy. I’ve got a couple of acne bumps that are not flattering. When my face doesn’t want to cooperate with me I like to give it some special treatment. Here are some things you can try so your face will love you!
1. This is an easy one. Brew yourself a cup of green tea. Remove the tea bag and let it cool.
2. Once your tea bag has cooled down open the tea bag and put the tea leaves in a small bowl. Add a teaspoon of honey and stir together. This makes the facial scrub.
3. Boil water on the stove in a medium size pot. Let the water cool just a bit. You want it to produce steam to unclog pores but you do not want to burn your face. Use a large towel and place over your head and drape some of the towel over the pot. This will allow the steam to open your pores. It should be comfortable and relaxing and not to hot to the face. If it is to hot let the your water cool down a bit more. Try to enjoy the facial steam for 10 minutes.
4. Take your green tea facial scrub and cleanse your face using small circular motions. Rinse the scrub off with some warm water.
5. Enjoy the softness and the clean feeling of your face while drinking your cup of tea.
If you don’t have the time to boil water and enjoy a nice facial steam, don’t worry, you can skip that step and just cleanse your face with the green tea facial scrub. You will still have the softness and brightening effect of the green tea scrub.
Enjoy your day! XOXO
I want to know what I am eating, don’t you? Actually you may not want to know that you are eating chemicals and genetically engineered foods. Most of us are not doing this by choice. We are doing this because we do not know or understand. I had read articles and watched videos in the past but I refused to look further. I didn’t have the time and I thought to myself what harm can this really cause. If it taste like a tomato then it is a tomato. If it smells like a tomato it is a tomato. I can admit now how wrong I was. I can now tell you that I can smell the difference between a tomato that has been grown fresh and a tomato that ripened with gas. I ask myself, why would I want to eat something ripened with gas anyway. I’m getting ahead of myself here. My intention is to make you aware and let you know that you have a choice. My hope is that more people will stand up and say that we want our food labeled.
When I sit and think about why so many children have allergies, why so many people are sick, and why people are getting sicker it makes sense to me. When the body ingest poisons, it gets sick. It think it is unethical, against the laws of nature, and about greed but that too could be its own blog post. I have only recently started this journey and it has been a bit time-consuming but I sure does feel good to know that I do have a choice. I’ve not yet switched my family over to 100% non-GMO foods but I am trying. The non-GMO stamp is now starting to jump out at me and I am doing better at understanding ingredients. There is a wonderful app for the iPhone found at http://responsibletechnology.org/. The website has so many great articles to help you understand and learn.
I would also like to share this twelve-minute video with you. Don’t shrug it off just watch it. I want you to understand, make your own choices, and of course share your thoughts with me and others.